Patiently Waiting

A year ago I lost my wife to infidelity. And through the trials I have faced since then, I have come closer to, and had more understanding of, and live a life of greater faith than at any time before in my life.
I have focused on so many things in my life, and that's all they were, things. A job, a car, a house, a companion, some good tunes, something to watch on tv, money.
Then the questions, do my friends really like me, do people think I'm weird, why am I so quiet, why does everyone have to point it out, would I be better off if I had more money?
As I have gotten more into the Bible, I have learned that none of this is important. Along with that, the pursuit of companionship is folly.
I thought I had a good wife, I was wrong.
I wasn't focused on the prize, which is Christ, I was focused on what James wanted, and the things I thought I needed.
I hear a lot now, when are you going to start dating, are you ready for me to set you up with someone, I know this girl that would be perfect.
I appreciated the gesture, but the thing is, right now my focus is more on God than it ever has, and if my journey has went like it has, and the purpose of that path is for me to grow closer to the LORD, then I would be wrong to give back in to the distractions that kept me away for so long. Well I kept myself away, the distractions just kept me from seeing God clearly.
Life doesn't have to be wrapped up in the person I am with, or in pursuit of that person, in fact, it is okay to be alone for awhile, to get to know God and enjoy a relationship with him.
So that is what I am going to do, wait patiently for God to lead me, and serve the LORD with my whole heart, and if he leads me to a woman then I will share my heart with her, but until then, my eyes must remain on the cause of Christ, and delivering the gospel to as many people as I can, and if I never meet her, expend my last breath on this earth trying to win someone to the cause of Christ.
There are more important things on this earth than dating, souls going to hell for eternity is high up there.

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16