Can't get God off my mind

We've had camp meeting at our church this week. 90 degree heat, sitting outside and listening to songs that praise God's glory, and sermons to touch your heart.
Our pastor made mention that it takes a few days of good preaching to soften the hearts of some, especially if you've been out there and have the world all over you, the word, the songs, it all has to chip away and get in there to your heart before you really start listening.
And I did for five nights, and it didn't really hit me.
On this one song the teens sang, "The Last Blood" It gave me goose bumps when the ladies were in perfect harmony and sang the line, "It's been three days since Heaven
Watched their Prince of Glory die." And then, "But at the grave something is happening
As death screams I've lost my hold."
But other than that, I didn't really feel anything.
Don't get me wrong, all of the messages were great.
Then we did a skit, teens and a few adults, Where one girl is experiencing alcohol, drugs, money, debt, sex, abuse, depression and then finally suicide.
Hope and love try to get to her at different times, but ultimately she tries to commit suicide, then forgiveness comes out and binds up her wrist and tries to get her to Jesus but all of the sins and desires of the world are between her and Christ and in a last try, forgiveness lifts her hand to Christ, and all the sins fall to the ground.
Christ comes out, removes the sins, and gives her a new sign that says saved.
And still nothing.
Maybe it was because I was focusing on the sound, trying not to mess up my part in the skit, etc. and on and on the excuses could come.
Then we went to put things back in the sound room and for a sound check I played the cd of the night, and when it got to that part, the harmony, I got the goose bumps again, and I commented on how good it sounded. And there must have been five or six people that asked for copies, me being one of them.
But still, nothing really, I just knew it was a great performance of a great song.
And so I went home, but that little line kept coming back, and I couldn't hear any more of the song than that in my head, and I finally had to ask on facebook what the song was, and my pastor helped me out.
But before I knew the name, I kept thinking about the song, and knew, there was something important being said in the song, if I could just remember those lines I posted above.
And then I thought about the skit, and thought how I wished it had been video taped since none of us who were in it really got to see it all put together.
And I started wondering what it looked like. What did others see.
And I thought about the part where all the sins were on the ground, and everyone start yelling amen, and I think about what they are seeing, Christ removing the sins from this girl who's life had been reduced to nothing, seeing Christ making all things new, giving her a new beginning.
How she was white as snow, and Christ didn't just take her sins off of her, he put them on himself, he carried her sins, he carried our sins to the cross to the grave, for us, that we might have eternal life.
Then he placed a new sign around her neck, bearing the word, "saved."
I wasn't moved very far there tonight, but the more it sinks in, the further I am moved. I keep listening to the song on youtube, and I wish I had went ahead and made my copy tonight so I could listen to my church family sing it.
I keep having to stop typing as it hits me again and again and again, what Christ did for us.
He knew what kind of person I would be, and he knew the choices I would make in life, where this dark and winding road would lead me and he said, that boy right there, James Lingerfelt, He's one of mine and I can't bare to see him burn in hell, so I'm going to go down there, and I'm going to take his sins for him, I'm going to shed my blood so my boy doesn't have to burn in hell.
And he did it, and I am so grateful, and I know I don't show it enough, heck I probably rarely show it at all, and it's so unfair that he would have to die for me, what am I worth that God's son would trade his life for mine?
He took the nails, the crown, the scars, the pain, the sins, the cross, death for me, A worthless sin filled man.
He gave and continues to give for us, and we turn our backs, and spit in the face of his mercy. We live our lives as if there is no sin, there is no hell and there is no God.
We sit in church on Sunday and take God out of the box we've kept him in all week, and then when the sermon is over we close him back up and head out the door. And if we feel down, or afraid during the week, we open up the box and ask God to help us.
If some friend see's us we tell them there's just some junk we don't really need anymore in the box, we just keep it around, you know, just in case we find a use for it.
Christ died for us, and we ignore him, I guess others will just have to find him on their own.
It's time to stop it, the world is dying, and we're watching it, we have the life saving kit, we have the cpr that breaths life into the lost of the world, it's time to start using it.
We always think of someone being lost just meaning that they need salvation.
Well, just close your eyes and think for a minute, what if you were lost, you are lost, you can't find your way out, you need someone to come and find YOU. Wouldn't you want someone to find you? What if no one had found you, think about that, where would you be if no one had found you and told you about Christ? What would your life look like?
Don't waste your life, find someone and tell them about Christ, time is running out...
I see so much change in the teens in such a short time, I see the Holy spirit awakening in them, he knows how short the time is, he knows he needs someone to take the word out to people who wouldn't otherwise receive it. He's working in these lives.
I want to see him work in my life too.
If you're saying prayer tonight, say a prayer for me.